I felt yesterday like I was about to visit the ever popular place "wit's end" (as my friend Shawni refers to), do not pass GO, do not collect $200, oh... please stop by Park Place to pay the cost with 2 hotels!!! We played Monopoly last weekend and that's pretty much how it went. Of course it was Disney Monopoly so Mogli (me) had to pay Lady and the Tramp (Saedra) the price of a stay in the Castle at 101 Dalmatian Plantation. Like I wanted to go there anyway, I don't even like dogs for "pizza's sake"! (that was for Ry - he loves to say that)
Anywho... I came to the realization that I needed medication...I know, you're wondering why it took me so long to figure that one out. What I really needed was to medicate my weary mind and soul...and a healthy dose of gratitude did just that!
As I've thought about my "Never gets done, costs too much, ways to get my children to stop arguing, not enough time in the day, pulling my hair out" list lately, I had to stop and breathe and take in that spoonful of beautiful gratitude!
Elder David B. Haight said, "It's so easy in our life for us to receive blessings, many of them almost uncounted, and have things happen in our lives that can help change our lives, improve our lives, and bring the Spirit into our lives. But we sometimes take them for granted. How grateful we should be for the blessings that the gospel of Jesus Christ brings into our hearts and souls. I would remind all of you that if we're ever going to show gratitude properly to our Heavenly Father, we should do it with all our heart, mind, and strength - because it was He who gave us life and breath. As that gratitude is magnified and developed and expanded, it can bless our hearts and our minds and our souls to where we'd like to continue to carry on and do those things that we are asked to do.".
Listening to the piano being played to it's loudest potential, immediately followed by the cello playing the screeeeeeching rendition of "boil the cabbage down" from a very excited 5th grader, while I'm of course trying to talk on the phone - My dose of gratitude: She's actually practicing without me needing to beg and plead...and sometimes yell, not really though :) And she is getting better and loving it. I'm also grateful she didn't choose the violin!
The one decent running vehicle is now in the shop with no a/c. The diagnosis: BAD, needs new compressor. So now I'm back to driving the "Beast" that gets 9, yes that's a 9, miles per gallon. My spoonful of gratitude: The a/c works!
Medical bills straining on my mind, and bank account... My LARGE dose of "G": Read the stories and blogs about the sweet Nielson family and the tragic plane crash the has left both husband and wife in critical care in the burn unit at a Phoenix hospital. Thinking about what the rest of their lives will be like. How thankful I am that we are all healthy and strong.
Complaining that I never get to see my travelin' "Mr.B"... Another gulp of gratitude: I have an amazing husband that supports me in anything I do. Even if it's some hair-brained idea or invention that I want to get a patent for, or going back to school after ___ many years. (Don't even try to guess). He always encourages me to "go for it". He tries to always have family scriptures and prayers even over speaker phone or the web-cam. (which personally I hate, it really does add 10 pounds!) May I also mention he fixed my broken washer without it costing a cent... I'm married to the king of "Jimmy (Or Jerry)- Riggers". That's a blessing right there folks!
Getting a little perturbed when a teenager flips a light on the the early morning hours after yet another sleepless night caused by my aching shoulder... An immeasurable dose of "G": Going in to check on her, only to find her studying her scriptures. Boy oh boy did my heart fill with joy as I counted yet another blessing.
"What did you read about this morning?"
"I read about the Stripling Warriors Mom. I don't know why I had my bookmark there, that's not even where I've been reading."
Maybe to remind you, my sweet girl, that you are a warrior. You go to battle each day against the darkness of the world, but you go as a daughter of God, with the shield of faith being steadfast and immovable, just like them.
When I wallow in self pity that I didn't have the opportunity to have more children... My gallon of "G": That I'm lucky enough to have four arms that wrap around me, 20 fingers to hold, 20 toes to paint, 4 ears to pick at, 2 backs to tickle and 2 sets of lips to smooch my cheeks and randomly say, "I love you momma"! I can never hear enough of that blessing!
Ahhhhh, Life is Grand!